Saturday, March 28, 2009

Out Of Control Rambling.

This is how I feel most of the time. Going to school, working, spending time with the family, and, if I can make the time, studying. 

Spring break was a mistake. I should have insisted to the school that we cancel spring break until I am done at the college. (No, I really don't care about the hundreds of other people that are there.) Spring break made me remember what life used to be like for me. I miss it. Kind of. It would be nice to if I could ONLY do school right now and start working when school is over. But, work experience will help me get into the Nursing program and since it is competitive, I would like any "help" I can get. 

I apply in September for the Nursing program. Maybe I can quit after that. So, 6 more months. Yuck. Or maybe I will just get used to my new life and quit wishing I had some aspects of my old life back. It will get better, even if it is in two and half years when my school is over. 

Thursday, March 26, 2009

It's been awhile.

I realize I haven't posted in over a week and I apologize for that. Last week was great. I decided to turn spring break into a mini vacation. I read two books, including the fourth Twilight book called Breaking Dawn (I really liked it and I hope she writes another one in the series). We went to the community pool a couple times and I cooked EVERY meal (I love to cook!). We got some of the backyard done and we filed our taxes.....Yay! 

Did I mention that I did not use the alarm clock once! I slept until 8 am every single morning, it was great. It was great week and my house is STILL a mess. That's ok though. The semester ends in just over a month and then we can get the house spotless. 

Monday, March 16, 2009

Spring Break Continued

Today is my first day completely off. I just worked the entire weekend, which I do every weekend. 

There are a few things I would like to accomplish this week. 

1. Get the backyard finished ~ About six months ago, we decided to turn the ENTIRE backyard into a garden. With how many of us there are to feed, I would love to be able to do this from my own garden. Interestingly, I grew up in apartments. I pretty much kill every plant that comes my way. I wish I had a person who could come over and show me everything on gardening while helping me plant it. 

2. Get our taxes finished. 

3. And yes, get my house clean ~ It doesn't really get clean during the school time, so I would really like to get it caught up again. 

Hopefully, I will be able to get this all done. I will let you know. 

Friday, March 13, 2009

Spring Break

It is official. As of today, I have a whole week off of school! The first thing I am going to do is shut OFF the alarm clock. I do not want to hear it for the entire week. 

I still have to work. But at least I get to sleep in. Well, as long as the two year old lets me. 

Saturday, March 7, 2009


ADHD runs in my family. I have four brothers and sisters. All five of us have been diagnosed. So has my mother. There is no denying it is there. Every time someone tells me that its just kids being kids, it makes me  a little nuts. While part of that is true, most kids can sit still at school and get their work done, quietly, without bouncing out of their seat and irritating the hell out of the teacher. Most kids don't make you feel like a herd of elephants just stampeded the room. 

My 7 year old, who is in first grade, has been having some of these issues at school plus a lot more. He doesn't turn in his homework because:

1. He leaves it at home (it doesn't matter how many times we tell him to grab it, he will set it down somewhere other than IN his backpack and walk out the door without it.)

2. When he gets to school, he will forget to take it OUT of his backpack if mom or dad put it in there for him. 

or 3. He will lie about having it. (Later I will find it crumpled up somewhere.)

The worst is having to fight with him the 4 out of 5 days a week about doing it. He throws major tantrums because he doesn't want to do it. 

Lucky for us, we get to fight with him like this on everything he is supposed to be doing. It makes getting out the door in the morning really hard. Trust me.

Lately, he has even started lying to his teacher about doing work at school. He tells her he is finished with something when, in reality, he is not. 

Once the battle has been fought and mom and dad have won, L will sit at the table and throw tons of mini tantrums about not being able to think because some one breathed too loud or something. 

Now don't get me wrong, we have some easy days. Days where L will do all his homework without a whimper. Unfortunately, this miracle only happens about twice a month. 

L's teacher recently bombarded me in the bathroom (not kidding) to ask me to do something about L. He is too much to handle. Especially in a classroom with 20 other kids. So, I made an appointment with our pediatrician. We go in to see her on March 25. In the meantime, we (the teacher got one also) got to fill out some wonderful forms about L's behavior. I am almost certain he will be diagnosed with ADHD. 

I was able to talk to my 11 yr old brother recently about being on medication and what it was like. He said that things were a lot easier to do when he has taken his meds. He also said he is able to ACT like the person he feels like inside. Oh, and he gets in trouble less. 

I really wish I didn't have to go this route. I wish that everything was different right now. My dream is to homeschool him RIGHT now. I would take him away from all the teachers that are going to have a hard time with him and do all sorts of wonderful things with him. (I don't know what those "things" are yet, but we would do them.) Unfortunately, with everything else in life right now, I can't do this. I have to try and make the best decision I can for all of us. 

Maybe Hubby will be able to get work throughout the summer and things would lighten up for me. A lot could change over the summer. Or I can continue dreaming. 

Friday, March 6, 2009


I just found out my mid term grade in Biology ~ C+! This means that I still have a chance to get a B in the class! 

Well, I am off to work. I get to work the next three nights. Hopefully, I will remember to post tomorrow about the 7 year old and ADHD. 

Wednesday, March 4, 2009


I absolutely love Spring! The birds start chirping, the weather starts to warm up, and everything starts to feel brighter. Even my mood gets better. 

I get to open my windows almost all day long. I love feeling a breeze in the house, knowing that the funky stink that has been hanging around for the last couple months will finally be gone. (It's what happens when seven people inhabit a space and can't open the windows because it is to frickin cold outside.)

The only problem with where I live is The horrible Wind. It blows with such great force. Sometimes things, like the BBQ grill, get knocked over with the wind. I usually get to lose half my apricot flowers because of this wonderful, beautiful wind. (In case you don't know, the flowers are what turn to fruit on plants.) 

Fortunately, I could care less about the wind as long as the weather is warming up. Luckily, for my peace of mind (probably literally), the weather is warming up and my favorite time of year is here.