Saturday, February 28, 2009

Panic Attack

Last night I had a full blown panic attack, I think. 

It could have an allergic reaction, but I don't think so. I was given something new to try last night, a vitamin type drink, and I think it made me feel a little funny, which turned into a panic attack because of how stressed out I have been. Isn't it great?! (yes, being totally sarcastic here).

I feel like such an idiot. We were at a friend's house visiting an out of town friend when this all happened. Everyone was so nice and concerned. I let the damn feelings consume me. Well, honestly, I wasn't quite sure how to stop them. So, what did I do? Got all the kids together and we bolted. Quickly. Out the door. I think I said goodbye. 

This kind of behavior of mine runs in the family. My mother used to have all the hospital routes memorized in case she had one. My sister doesn't go to get-togethers like this because of feelings like mine. I have aunts on anti-anxiety meds and I am finding out, cousins too. 

For me, personally, I started having anxiety about 12 years ago. Just after my twins were born. Until the last couple of months I had never had an actual panic attack. 

Not fun.


  1. It's okay to have a panic attack. Here's how I learned to handle them: Let others distract you, and don't focus on them. That just makes it worse if you focus on them.

    You aren't dying. You come from a long line of healthy people (who think they are dying from time to time). You aren't going to die from a panic attack. They just don't feel good.

    And when you are under stress, don't drink energy drinks or caffeine, lol.

  2. I’m sorry to hear that you had a panic attack. Be good to yourself, wich means you shouldn’t feel like an idiot, and do what you need to, to feel better (hmmm, okay that’s a crappy sentence).

    Hope things are better for you today.

  3. Thanks you guys. I feel much better now. :)



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